END OF THE LINE.

Soon I shall begin my 75th year of my incarnation on Earth and feel I'm coming to the end of the line.

 

I'm amazed that I've lived so long considering the numerous health issues I've had to  endure over the years.  At age 7 I lost my spleen due to a rare blood disorder which had me hospitalised off and on until the age of 25.

In 2012 I lost a kidney due to cancer and in 2017 I lost part of my bowels due to cancer.

Soon after I was hit by Parkinson's disease which took away my ability to play a musical instrument and being a musician, this broke my heart. 

Some days my hands shake so much that I can't sign my name. 

For the past 18 months I've been suffering from a serious case of Shingles, which is very painful. My back bleeds daily leaving me weak and tired. 

On top of this I'm suffering from Emphysema due to smoking, which I continue to do. I smoke around 5 cigs and 5 joints of medicinal marijuana per day. The MM helps reduce my anxiety and stress and gives me a healthy appetite. 

SOBRIETY.

I gave up the booze 4 years ago and believe that it is one of the best decisions I've ever made. Booze turned me into a monster who did and said things that I wouldn't do when sober.

PRESCRIPTION DRUGS.

I self treat myself with herbs and vitamins . I take no prescription drugs and don't trust doctors whom nearly killed me a couple of time.

Once whilst in hospital they wanted to do an MRI scan and I said no way as my immune system was shattered from surgery only 24 hours earlier.  I told them they had to have my consent for any medical procedure first.

After my surgery for bowel cancer they placed me on chemotherapy for 6 months. After 3 months I became so sick, I couldn't eat or drink anything without vomiting it all up minutes later. My immune system crashed and I caught a bad flu which had me in bed for 2 weeks. I stopped the chemo and concentrated on treating my flu with herbs and vitamins. After a few weeks I recovered and told my doctor I was ceasing my chemo and never went back to him.

THE COVID SCAM.

I haven't been near a doctor since 2018 and have refused to be vaxxed over the covid scam. Between 2020 - 2022 I had a number of friends who died from chemo and from covid vaccinations. 

Today most of my friends have passed away and I live a solitary life. I don't socialize or go out anymore

CELIBACY.

Due to my health issues I have been celibate for a number of years and don't miss the hassles that relationships bring. I am happy being single.

 Each day is mine to do whatever I wish with no set routine or schedule. No one to tell me what to do and when to do it. 

I eat when hungry, I sleep when tired and do my domestics when I'm motivated. I listen to the music that I want to hear and watch tv shows that I want to watch. 

I'm a man of Mind, Body and Spirit who doesn't rely on religion as a crutch to deal with reality. I worship no invisible God as I'm a realist whom believes that one creates their own destiny by the action one takes. Our choices define the life we live and experience. 

                         

RIVER OF LIGHT.

In my final days I choose to live a peaceful and solitary existence.  I've done my time in Hell and all my ambitions have faded away. 

Soon I shall be free of this world and forgotten by the human race.